The title of this post is negative. It was a very rough day. But not for what most people would think. There weren't a million accidents. In fact i only have two dirty pairs of underwear in the laundry. i just learned a lot of "mommy lessons" today. I failed as a mom today. Definitely. But the good news is that Mason is going to sleep and when he wakes up we I will have another chance. Because I'm just that lucky. I love him so much and today I forgot about why. I turned into this obsessed freak. Sometimes I just get so caught up with him growing up and what I want him to to do next and some how proving myself as a "good mom" by how he is "turning out". When i feel mommy Guilt since I go to work and so over weekends and evenings I find myself trying to make up for lost time but in a negative way. Today I wanted mason to be potty trained so badly I made the whole day just miserable for the both of us. He cried and threw more fits the he has in the last year combined. I got mad more times the necessary and fed him so much sugary crap it's a miracle he is even sleeping right now. But my reality check came when we were outside, he got away and I thought Travis had him but he didn't and he thought I had him. We all panicked as we ran up the isles of the storage units screaming his name. Only to find him completely fine playing with rocks. Just being a toddler. My perfectly adorable baby boy just being himself. I love him to death and so sad I wrecked this day. Tomorrow will be different. I know we will probably have days like this (like next time we potty train) but I've just got to slow down. I can be mason's super mom I don't need to compete with everyone else if I just remember that!