The title of this post is negative. It was a very rough day. But not for what most people would think. There weren't a million accidents. In fact i only have two dirty pairs of underwear in the laundry. i just learned a lot of "mommy lessons" today. I failed as a mom today. Definitely. But the good news is that Mason is going to sleep and when he wakes up we I will have another chance. Because I'm just that lucky. I love him so much and today I forgot about why. I turned into this obsessed freak. Sometimes I just get so caught up with him growing up and what I want him to to do next and some how proving myself as a "good mom" by how he is "turning out". When i feel mommy Guilt since I go to work and so over weekends and evenings I find myself trying to make up for lost time but in a negative way. Today I wanted mason to be potty trained so badly I made the whole day just miserable for the both of us. He cried and threw more fits the he has in the last year combined. I got mad more times the necessary and fed him so much sugary crap it's a miracle he is even sleeping right now. But my reality check came when we were outside, he got away and I thought Travis had him but he didn't and he thought I had him. We all panicked as we ran up the isles of the storage units screaming his name. Only to find him completely fine playing with rocks. Just being a toddler. My perfectly adorable baby boy just being himself. I love him to death and so sad I wrecked this day. Tomorrow will be different. I know we will probably have days like this (like next time we potty train) but I've just got to slow down. I can be mason's super mom I don't need to compete with everyone else if I just remember that!
I did catch this super sweet moment of Travis and mason watching some coug football together!!
4 comments:
I think potty training brings out the worst in all of us! I love that kids are so forgiving. What good examples to us.
I'm not sure why we all want (or wanted) to push our first one out of a crib, potty training, etc but I love having more kids and relaxing about everything. I realize a lot of it happens at it's own time and you have less control than you think. You're a great mom and we all have bad days!
Courtney, you are seriously such a good mom. Mason is one lucky little guy. It's so hard to get so wrapped up in getting them to the next stage in life. I totally do it with Ian all the time. I want him to be potty trained so badly as well. He just is not going to be ready for awhile. I have finally came to terms with it. I have to let him be ready first. Not just me. Thanks for being a great example to me.
Potty training is the worst. I feel so bad when I snap at my kids. I tend to do it a lot during moving (like now) and it makes me feel so bad. That's what prayer and wonderful kids are for.
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